Romans 5
Peace and Hope
1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we[a] have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
Good thing I have Hope tattooed on my body.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
Proverbs 18:13
"Spouting off before listening to the facts is both shameful and foolish."
Sounds about right to me. I'm not saying I'm void of guilt regarding this scripture, but I try really really hard to listen to the words that come out of someone's mouth and target the point before saying or asking anything. Haha, I don't easily embarrass, but one thing that does get me is when I'm talking and before I know it, I have no idea what I just said or why I'm even talking so I stop myself and say, "I'm sorry, I have no idea where I'm going with this."
Guilty.
But I won't stop trying. Because people have done this to me. Because I don't deserve that. And neither does anyone else. People don't listen before they retort. There are few people I enjoy fighting with. For the most part, I'm not a fan of spending the majority of my days sick to my stomach because of an argument with someone I care about.
Just to get it out there.
There it is.
Reevaluating never ceases. It goes on and on and on and on and on and...........
Cheers.
Sounds about right to me. I'm not saying I'm void of guilt regarding this scripture, but I try really really hard to listen to the words that come out of someone's mouth and target the point before saying or asking anything. Haha, I don't easily embarrass, but one thing that does get me is when I'm talking and before I know it, I have no idea what I just said or why I'm even talking so I stop myself and say, "I'm sorry, I have no idea where I'm going with this."
Guilty.
But I won't stop trying. Because people have done this to me. Because I don't deserve that. And neither does anyone else. People don't listen before they retort. There are few people I enjoy fighting with. For the most part, I'm not a fan of spending the majority of my days sick to my stomach because of an argument with someone I care about.
Just to get it out there.
There it is.
Reevaluating never ceases. It goes on and on and on and on and on and...........
Cheers.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Summer anthem
Some of my favorite lyrics of all time. And thanks to S. Lumsden for discussing it with me last night. Cheers.
I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm
I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJb_Sq7_jjo
I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm
I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJb_Sq7_jjo
Monday, July 11, 2011
La bataille constante.
Am I so selfish, that I believe I'm always the victim
Do I demand solice and sympathy from everyone around
Or is there really a broken heart, trying to heal within
Reasoning and surrender sometimes are so profound
It's not that I grow tired,
Mostly tired of myself
Am I so different, my thought processes
Is my heart really different from everyone else
Soldier, fight
Will there ever be a rest in life
With no one to blame
I've chosen this voluntarily
Keep standing
Keep your faith
Keep attention
If nothing else to gain
Learn to believe in yourself one more time
Isaiah 40:29
Do I demand solice and sympathy from everyone around
Or is there really a broken heart, trying to heal within
Reasoning and surrender sometimes are so profound
It's not that I grow tired,
Mostly tired of myself
Am I so different, my thought processes
Is my heart really different from everyone else
Soldier, fight
Will there ever be a rest in life
With no one to blame
I've chosen this voluntarily
Keep standing
Keep your faith
Keep attention
If nothing else to gain
Learn to believe in yourself one more time
Isaiah 40:29
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Broken hearts & brand new starts
Oi.
Let's just say it's one of those days. I guess the good news is, it seems to be that way for mostly everyone.
Or maybe that's a little selfish.
Either way, I'm okay with it.
So my question for the day (out of many) is this: Why do people care about somebody else's business?
Actually, that's not worded exactly the way I want. It's not so much about being down with OPP (yeah you know me!) but rather how people react.
Here's the most recent reaction that's got me struggling tough.
I know I have people in my life that care about me and I am VERY thankful for them. Very. I value their opinions and respect them. Well, try to.
But the thing I struggle the most with is when they feel I'm doing something wrong, or even something they don't agree with, they express concern with anger. Downright hatefulness sometimes. I've experienced this most recently as today. And let me ask you, lonely reader: "What the frack?"
Do you think it's really going to help me re-evaluate my choice/decision/opinion? Really?
Chances are, not a chance.
I'm much more open to looking more deeply at myself if someone approaches me with actual concern. Making me feel stupid or completely wrong is hurtful and if anything makes me want nothing to do with you.
Apparently, other people feel the same way I do. I see it in my friendships. I see it at work. I see it on stupid reality tv shows. It baffles me.
So let's stop the anger. Deal? Sure, go ahead and get mad that gas prices are going up along with insurances. Get frustrated that every major arterial is under construction. But getting angry with someone for their belief is counter-productive.
So there's my rant.
Let love win.
And bring me some chocolate milk. Please.
Cheers.
Let's just say it's one of those days. I guess the good news is, it seems to be that way for mostly everyone.
Or maybe that's a little selfish.
Either way, I'm okay with it.
So my question for the day (out of many) is this: Why do people care about somebody else's business?
Actually, that's not worded exactly the way I want. It's not so much about being down with OPP (yeah you know me!) but rather how people react.
Here's the most recent reaction that's got me struggling tough.
I know I have people in my life that care about me and I am VERY thankful for them. Very. I value their opinions and respect them. Well, try to.
But the thing I struggle the most with is when they feel I'm doing something wrong, or even something they don't agree with, they express concern with anger. Downright hatefulness sometimes. I've experienced this most recently as today. And let me ask you, lonely reader: "What the frack?"
Do you think it's really going to help me re-evaluate my choice/decision/opinion? Really?
Chances are, not a chance.
I'm much more open to looking more deeply at myself if someone approaches me with actual concern. Making me feel stupid or completely wrong is hurtful and if anything makes me want nothing to do with you.
Apparently, other people feel the same way I do. I see it in my friendships. I see it at work. I see it on stupid reality tv shows. It baffles me.
So let's stop the anger. Deal? Sure, go ahead and get mad that gas prices are going up along with insurances. Get frustrated that every major arterial is under construction. But getting angry with someone for their belief is counter-productive.
So there's my rant.
Let love win.
And bring me some chocolate milk. Please.
Cheers.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
hear it learn it live it
Time to be selfish. I think this is partly because of the 3 seasons of Entourage I've watched in 2 days. Here's my list anyway.
1. A Maserati given to me to drive around and be seen in for one year.
2. Another tattoo, although I'm still not sure what yet. Alas, my new permanent ink shall wait.
3. My white Fossil to be fixed. The only one to blame for this is me.
4. My last name back.
5. My old waistline back.
6. A lifetime supply of diet ginger ale.
7. A Macbook Pro. I have no need for one, however, so I will stick with my PC until it starts smoking. Bad habit.
8. To stop feeling guilty for how I acted the past year of my life. Not classy. Nor loving.
9. To go to Hogwarts. Movie set, Universal Studios, or the one yet to be built in England. I want to go to there.
10. A fulltime job.
Ten seems like a good number for now. You can contact me for shipping information.
Cheers.
K
1. A Maserati given to me to drive around and be seen in for one year.
2. Another tattoo, although I'm still not sure what yet. Alas, my new permanent ink shall wait.
3. My white Fossil to be fixed. The only one to blame for this is me.
4. My last name back.
5. My old waistline back.
6. A lifetime supply of diet ginger ale.
7. A Macbook Pro. I have no need for one, however, so I will stick with my PC until it starts smoking. Bad habit.
8. To stop feeling guilty for how I acted the past year of my life. Not classy. Nor loving.
9. To go to Hogwarts. Movie set, Universal Studios, or the one yet to be built in England. I want to go to there.
10. A fulltime job.
Ten seems like a good number for now. You can contact me for shipping information.
Cheers.
K
Monday, September 20, 2010
In The Dark
Flyleaf. Maybe screaming isn't your thing. But these lyrics are mine right now.
I've written songs in the dark
I've felt inspired in the dark
I hide myself in the dark
Used to be afraid of the dark
Those in the light know we die in the dark
There's only artificial light here
My flaws hide well here
I used to be afraid of cluttered noises
Now I'm afraid of silence
Fill this space, idle words
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus, kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did
Now I am mute, despite myself
All of them are gone
The silence overtakes me
The idle words forsake me
And I am left to face me
I'm held accountable
For every idle word
Curse the idle words
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus, kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did
Glory shows up
Exposes us
I'm naked here
Forsaken here, by the dark, by the dark
Damn the dark
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus, kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did
I've written songs in the dark
I've felt inspired in the dark
I hide myself in the dark
Used to be afraid of the dark
Those in the light know we die in the dark
There's only artificial light here
My flaws hide well here
I used to be afraid of cluttered noises
Now I'm afraid of silence
Fill this space, idle words
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus, kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did
Now I am mute, despite myself
All of them are gone
The silence overtakes me
The idle words forsake me
And I am left to face me
I'm held accountable
For every idle word
Curse the idle words
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus, kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did
Glory shows up
Exposes us
I'm naked here
Forsaken here, by the dark, by the dark
Damn the dark
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus, kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did
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